“I thirst.” I first heard this statement as I sat in my car in a parking lot by myself . I was talking to a dear friend of mine and didn’t want to get out of the car to interrupt what she was saying on the phone. She was speaking into me. Nesha was one of the few people I told early on in this journey, about the Lord calling me to Uganda. Frankly because I felt crazy speaking it out loud….and the Lord had told me to “keep a quiet heart.”
I love Nesha because she is real. Just real. She is quiet and gentle on one hand, but on the other, she is full of Holy Spirit fire. When I told her that the Lord was calling me to Uganda, she looked right in my eye and said, “You’ll go.” She never doubted the call on my life….she has only spoken into it. She has never given me an “if you get there” statement, she only gives me a “when you get there” word. She believes like I do. She believes in healings and miracles. She believes in dancing when your world is falling apart.
In that parking lot a few weeks ago, she said that she wanted me to read a Mother Teresa book. She said, “you know, Shannon, she was called at 36 years old and was silent for quite a while, just like you. She was called to leave the world that she knew and to live among the poor.” She said, “you need to get this book, it talks about her fire, Mother Teresa understood what the words “I thirst” mean.”
So, I got the book.
And I now understand the statement, “I thirst.”
Mother Teresa had, what I call, a holy visitation. God Himself showed her that He thirsts for us. Not a negative connotation of the word “thirst” as a lack…but “thirst” as an intense longing. Jesus intensely desires for us to love Him, to know Him. Just as a thirsty man in the desert yearns and aches for water, our loving Father thirsts for us. He is consumed with us, just as we are consumed with getting water to quench our thirst. He would give anything for us, just as we would for water…..
And He gladly gives us all He is and all He has in exchange for us.
Wow. I cannot fathom the depths of His love for me.
And just as intensely as He loves and thirsts for me, He thirsts for you. He thirsts and yearns for these people in Uganda to know Him and His love.
He thirsts to give us peace.
He thirsts to comfort us.
He thirsts to show us love.
He thirsts to be provider.
He thirsts to “show off” for us.
He thirsts to heal.
He thirsts for us to call on His name.
Mother Teresa wrote the words “I thirst” on chapel walls. She challenged people to ask themselves if they knew what it meant to hear God tell them that He thirsts for them.
And I have to take this a step further in my life….
I thirst for Him.
There is no one like Him. I never want my thirst to be satisfied. I want to always long for Him. And just as He gives me a sip of His Holy Spirit water, I want to run after Him for more. I want to see more healings. More provisions. I want to speak to more people about Who He is to me! I want a continual thirst for more.
“Father God, may I never be satisfied with what I know about You. I want to know You more. I want to proclaim even more about You. You have every right to challenge if I am thirsty enough for You today. I love you with every ounce of my soul. And just when you give me a sip, ignite me to pursue You for more.”
“O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.” Psalm 63:1
“Lord, take me to the driest land, to the most parched souls, and use me to quench them with You and Your love…..Amen”